May 9, 2020 hiswarringhandmaid No comments exist

mourning to dancing

Our good Father God, gave us His Word filled with promises for us to possess for ourselves by faith.

Some of my favorite verses come from Psalm 30:8-12 which I have made a personal prayer many times and have seen God answer mightily.

Psalm 30:8-12

8 I cried out to You, O Lord;
And to the Lord I made supplication:
9 “What profit is there in my blood,
When I go down to the pit?
Will the dust praise You?
Will it declare Your truth?
10 Hear, O Lord, and have mercy on me;
Lord, be my helper!”
11 You have turned for me my mourning into dancing;
You have put off my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness,
12 To the end that my glory may sing praise to You and not be silent.
O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever.

If you are in a situation that has you in a state of mourning (tormentors in your life, sickness, lack, etc.), you can make these words your prayer in faith. God is a merciful God and longs to be gracious to us. His name is literally, Deliverer. Call upon Him as such as a faith declaration to Him and to increase your faith. Pray and do not give up until turnaround comes. Yes, even your tears are prayers to Him, so if you can’t muster up words at times, hold these verses close to your heart to the Lord.

I have experienced deliverances and one GREAT deliverance from the Lord from a truly terrible enemy. His Word is true. Take His promises as fact. Trust Him.

May 9, 2020 hiswarringhandmaid No comments exist

praise square

Devote yourselves to prayer, KEEPING ALERT in it with an attitude of thanksgiving.

Colossians 4:2

Recently someone whom I am very close to betrayed me regarding something I had expressed in great detail that if they were to do this thing it would be a great violation of trust against me.

I confronted this person with tears, and it took many more tears and words to convince this person that they were wrong and to never do it again.

I forgave the person before the Lord, but a few days later I noticed a hardness in my heart that wasn’t there before toward them and in general. I was still hurt and angry and some bitterness had even entered in. One of the most hurtful things someone can do to me is violate my trust especially when I make it clear that it’s a very important boundary to me, and they complete disregard it.

I talked to the Lord about it, and stony places had entered my heart as a result of this issue. I was still shocked, hurt, angry, and needed healing. I have a history of much abuse and many betrayals in my life, so these things greatly affect me – just as the enemy had hoped when he tempted this person into doing it and in this case with success. Honestly, my heart was broken by it.

With much heaviness in my heart, I cried out to God, and He reminded me about living a life of thanksgiving. It is a spiritual weapon in addition to honoring Him.

I’ve given the issue over to the Lord and still need more healing from it. It’s like it opened some old wounds from past betrayals that were severely traumatizing. But through thanksgiving to the Lord, I do feel my heart healing and the stony places softening to flesh again.

For every crumb of food for myself, my son, even my pets, I give thanks – sometimes by which I am moved to tears by the Holy Spirit. I praise God not out of feeling like if I don’t, I am somehow not pleasing Him, but because I love Him and He is my Provider and deserves all the thanks and honor and glory in it.

“…….O, Lord my God, thank You for the provision You provided so me, my son, and my pets can eat this food. I bless Your Holy name, Lord.”

“Father, thank You for the house You’ve provided. Safe shelter. You are good.”

“Lord, thank You for Your Son, Jesus, whose body was broken, whose blood was shed, so I was healed and saved.”

“Thank You for You Word, Lord, which You exalt above Your very name, so we know we can take it as fact.”

“I bless Your Holy name. I praise You and thank You for the gift of the Holy Spirit, our Helper, to get us through each day…….”

It is wise to regularly do “heart checks” with God because the enemy would want nothing more than for us to get to where we allow a spirit of bitterness to make deep roots in us and for our hearts to become and stay hardened.

Even if my trust had not been violated, I should have already been more purposeful with my thanksgiving to God daily for the many blessings that I do have.

Sorry, Lord, my God. Of course, the Word says, there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1). I know His love is unending toward me, so that’s why He reminded me of His truth – to put on a garment of praise to Him for a spirit of heaviness (Isaiah 61:3). Praise also confuses and routs the enemy from our midst (2 Chronicles 20).


Father, give me eyes to see and ears to hear when stony places are forming in my heart that I not give place to the devil through growing anger that turns into a deep root of bitterness. Let me be very discerning of the state of my heart toward You and others each day. Remind me to live a life of thanksgiving. A life of unceasing praise to You, for You, and for Your glory.

In Jesus’ name, amen.

Enter into His gates with thanksgiving,
And into His courts with praise.
Be thankful to Him, and bless His name.

Psalm 100:4

“Amen! Blessing and glory and wisdom,
Thanksgiving and honor and power and might,
Be to our God forever and ever.

Revelation 7:12

May 8, 2020 hiswarringhandmaid No comments exist

152 44 56

“And it shall come to pass afterward
That I will pour out My Spirit on all flesh;
Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy,
Your old men shall dream dreams,
Your young men shall see visions.

JOEL 2:28

Ask God to give you dreams, expecting them by faith according to His Word, and you will have them. Maybe not the first night, but keep asking. In faith, always.

Sharing dreams on my blog because they may be a confirmation to you as well.

5/7/2020 – Dreamt of the numbers 44 and 56.

I was in a museum like ice cream shop, and when me and a friend went to pay for our ice cream to our shock, my bill for one ice cream cone was $44 (and an amount of change I cannot recall), and my friend’s bill, also for one ice cream cone was $56 (and an amount of change I cannot recall).

I knew when I woke up it wasn’t about expensive ice cream but the Lord drawing my attention to the numbers.

I wrote the numbers down when I woke knowing it was a God dream and around lunchtime today, I popped on YouTube, and the first thing I saw was this community post by Luke Harding….

luke harding 444

So, this 44 and 444 confirmation are major for me, my faith and my heart as a person whom I love dearly and for whom I am praying fervently to the Lord for victory, healing, and deliverance is named Jacob. Glory to the Lamb of God who forgives all our sins, heal all our diseases, and paid for ALL the curse of the law, so by faith, we can exchange the “bad” in our lives for the good He paid for. Victory doesn’t always come as fast as we want it to, but we can boldly expect it to come.

Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
But the Lord delivers him out of them ALL.

PSALM 34:19

I have yet to dig deeper with the Lord on anything else He is trying to speak to me through the numbers 44 and 56, but I did have a chance to glance at the Psalms they relate to and they are very applicable to my prayers overall.

5/4/2020 – I dreamt of the number 152.

I was riding in a car, and someone literally raised up this digital reader and showed it to me. It looked like 122 at first, and the person said, “Not 122. 152.”

When I woke up, I looked up Psalm 15:2 and read all of Psalm 15. It’s all about how to abide with God and never be shaken.

A few days before this dream, a friend and I were texting back and forth about living in the secret place with the Lord and what it means to truly abide in Him.

I will prayerfully look up more verses related to these numbers over the course of this next week to see if there is more to learn from the Lord as I am not certain I have the full interpretation yet on these numbers. Well, with the exception of 44, but there could be more.

There is also a pastor who teaches on the numbers in the Bible and their meaning, so I will check it out glean from his site as well, then take it to the Lord for help and confirmation. That site is called Prophetic Numbers if you are interested.

May 7, 2020 hiswarringhandmaid No comments exist

social distancing hell


God is using what was meant for evil – this “social distancing situation” – to hit a reset button for our good. Soon, it will be over, and we must “GO” and seek the lost while they may be found.

Wear it as a conversation starter and share your faith. Jesus is the ONLY hope of glory in eternity.

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Social Distancing from God for Eternity will Be Hell in one of my Teespring shops.

“John 3:16 – For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”

“Romans 10:9-10; 13 – If you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation…
For “whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved.”

May 6, 2020 hiswarringhandmaid No comments exist

gun barrel dream

“Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour,” (1 Peter 5:8)

Today, I had a very vivid dream that I knew was from the Lord. A warning dream.

In the dream, I had been writing things for the Lord and many were very angry at me. Shortly after me just somehow knowing that many were angry at me, a man came to my home at night. He crashed through my front door so violently and with such strength that he not only effortlessly busted through the door but also busted through much of the doorframe and wall around it.

Once through, he quickly and aggressively ran straight toward me, gun in hand, and pointed the barrel of his gun maybe a couple feet from my face. I could see right down its barrel clearly. I cowered somewhat, put my hand up indicating for him to stop (like that would work), and in my mind said, “How can I talk my way out of this?”

I stood up, and all I could say was, “Jesus. Jesus. In the name of Jesus. And I began to pray in tongues and sing in tongues.”

At the FIRST mention of the name of Jesus, the man’s evil countenance changed from tormentor to tormented. The more I said Jesus, in the name of Jesus, and prayed in tongues, etc., the more he was struck with absolute terror. I have never seen such a look of utter terror on someone’s face.

Somehow, his gun ended up in my hand – the name of Jesus “disarmed him” – Hallelujah! He then pulled another gun from his person, but did so in absolute terror, neck bent forward, shoulders up in a protective fashion, and flew out the door, cowering and looking at me as he fled in stricken with terror.

“They” sent this man after me with the intent of killing me on the spot.

The enemy is roaring louder than ever and will devour whom he MAY. But he doesn’t have to. Be sober and prayerful and alert and believe by faith that you have authority over all his power. That thief is nothing compared to the name of Jesus. Fear not!

“The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly,” (John 10:10)

The Lord told me to interpret this spiritually and to use spiritual warfare to confront it. The man represented demonic spirits either wanting to kill me directly (sickness, etc.) or using people (toxic ones, etc.) who submit to the will of the devil and are used to go in for the slow kill as well as occupy all my time therefore making me ineffective to do God’s will. e.g. write, say what He’d have me say, be a mother or daughter, etc. that can wholly be there for her family.

BUT the name of Jesus!

Notice how at there mere mention of the name of Jesus that the enemy cowered in fear and was scattered. This is what we are called to. I believe and have heard this for some time in my spirit, and heard it again today from a pastor, that His people will see greater works that Jesus did happen through us in His name in these last of the last days. Jesus purchased authority over all the power of the enemy 2000 years ago. It’s time His people took Him for His Word and promises – FACT above what we see.

“Behold, I give you the authority to trample on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means hurt you,” (Luke 10:19).

ALL the power of the enemy. The enemy and every demon under him must cower at the mention of the name of Jesus. Only believe. If you are a born again believer in Jesus Christ, this means you too.

Dream continued…

I was able to report it to the police. I can’t remember what was said but they showed me photos of people “they” were trying to harm / kill as well. One photo I do recall is of a woman sleeping and me saying, “See? They were trying to kill her too.”

I am not 100% sure of the interpretation on why the woman was sleeping and that I understood it as they were trying to kill her in her sleep in the actual dream.

Is this the large number of people still asleep in the church but still just as vulnerable to “death” or serious harm (a form of death) in some way?

Be not deceived the enemy is merciless beyond merciless and truly seeks to kill God’s people, using others, willing vessels as well.

I had neglected to pray the whole army of God lately, and the Lord reminded me this morning that I must do this and take is seriously – in faith from a place of rest – not fear.

Because I take Him for His Word as FACT that…

“He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler,” (Psalm 91:4).

You too can put on the full armor of God, know the Word for yourself, so His truth is also Your shield and buckler.

It also came to me to be QUICK to forgive your enemies as to give no permission to the enemy to attack you.

Here’s Ephesians 6:10-20 for your convenience and His glory…

Ephesians 6:10-20

The Whole Armor of God

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14 Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; 18 praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, (M)being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints— 19 and for me, that utterance may be given to me, that I may open my mouth boldly to make known the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains; that in it I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.

May 4, 2020 hiswarringhandmaid No comments exist

broke bread

Matthew 15:32-39

Feeding the Four Thousand

32 Now Jesus called His disciples to Himself and said, “I have compassion on the multitude, because they have now continued with Me three days and have nothing to eat. And I do not want to send them away hungry, lest they faint on the way.”

33 Then His disciples said to Him, “Where could we get enough bread in the wilderness to fill such a great multitude?”34 Jesus said to them, “How many loaves do you have?”
And they said, “Seven, and a few little fish.”

35 So He commanded the multitude to sit down on the ground. 36 And He took the seven loaves and the fish and gave thanks, broke them and gave them to His disciples; and the disciples gave to the multitude. 37 So they all ate and were filled, and they took up seven large baskets full of the fragments that were left. 38 Now those who ate were four thousand men, besides women and children. 39 And He sent away the multitude, got into the boat, and came to the region of Magdala.

I love this so much. Jesus didn’t distribute the food Himself, He GAVE it TO the disciples to give to (feed) the multitude.

What a beautiful shadow of what we are called to even today. Jesus GAVE Himself for us, to save us, and indwell us with His very Spirit, so that we could GO into all the world on His behalf and feed His sheep the saving and healing gospel of Jesus Christ. To partake of His body and blood.

And for communion, the Lord’s supper, He instructed us to use bread to represent His broken body, and wine to represent His blood. So, it was also a shadow of how His body would be broken for the saving of the multitudes.

All glory to the Lamb! How we praise You, Lord Jesus!

May 3, 2020 hiswarringhandmaid No comments exist

marveled 2

Matthew 15:29-31

29 Jesus departed from there, skirted the Sea of Galilee, and went up on the mountain and sat down there. 30 Then great multitudes came to Him, having with them the lame, blind, mute, maimed, and many others; and they laid them down at Jesus’ feet, and He healed them.

31 So the multitude marveled when they saw

the mute speaking,
the maimed made whole,
the lame walking,
and the blind seeing;
and they glorified the God of Israel.


Father, I ask that You pour out Your Spirit greater than ever before, so that the world will marvel at You and give You all the glory. May we be vessels that allow Your healing to pass through us in Jesus’ mighty name, our only agenda as Your agenda, pointing to Your Son, Jesus Christ and glorifying Him alone, the One who came to bring liberty to every captive. Healing glorifies You because it lines up with Your Word, prophecies, atonement, confirming You as the Christ the Son of the Living God. We bless You and live to glorify You.

In Jesus’ name, amen.

May 2, 2020 hiswarringhandmaid No comments exist

withered trees

Father, Your Word says if we ask according to Your will in Jesus’ name that we can be totally confident that we have what ask of You (1 John 15:14-15). No buts. Just yes and amen for Your glory and because You love us.

Prayer for Healing

By the authority of Jesus Christ, I curse you – name sicknesses – and say to you wither and die, bear NO FRUIT ever again in (my body, name of person’s body, etc.) and be removed and cast into the sea in Jesus’ name, amen.

faith is

“Now faith is the SUBSTANCE of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen,” (Hebrews 11:1).

Wow! Faith is a substance!

The substance for our faith for the above prayer is found in the following passage of scripture:

Matthew 21:18-22

18 Now in the morning, as He returned to the city, He was hungry. 19 And seeing a fig tree by the road, He came to it and found nothing on it but leaves, and said to it, “Let no fruit grow on you ever again.” Immediately the fig tree withered away.

20 And when the disciples saw it, they marveled, saying, “How did the fig tree wither away so soon?”

21 So Jesus answered and said to them, “Assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ it will be done. 22 And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.”